When I go to bed at night
a horse puts its head
through my window
I think this is strange
but I live with it
because I am young
and don't know
what's normal
in this world


I put my hands on my hips
he enters the bedroom
You have started
without me
I say
I plunge my hands
through my fleshy sides
I say
He plunges his fist
through my belly
and performs a link
by penetrating
my back
with his other
I say
he says
Inside of me
we smooth out a child
and call it Vincent

Lump in throat... Cry

I can't imagine what my life would be without you
but I wait and try and if I imagine really hard
I can.
Its this and I am here and I still live
because I didn't change that
I didn't even think of that
really properly
but you are not here
and its been a while
and now and again
I think
its been a while
you've been gone


Who goes to the drive in in Britain anyway?

We are the police
we drive around
at night
we watch for
lawless action
and we go to
the drive in
and look superfine
in our uniforms
or so we think


I have two boys
its what I wanted
I don't have time
for shopping any way
I buy online
As Westfield gives me
panic attacks
and I don't want to spend
my time
in Marks and Spencers
because that
would be a waste of time
wouldn't it
a girl might want to shop
I don't do that any more
no sir-ey
put that in your hand bag
and smoke it
like a girl

Not just the Great Wave

Its like nothing ever happens
but I always stay the same.
That man has a big head,
no you argue
he has a little body.
When Hokusia painted mount Fuji
he didn't paint it once,
he painted it 130 times
from different angles
and this it what its like,
nothing and the same
from 130 different angles

Time to Heal

But seeing a ghost is less likely
when you have fresh death in your life
Because having someone you know
die is going from fat to thin
in a blink
it takes time to re-connect with the dead
and this will take time
because you will need time
to connect with the dead